That was a long time ago, and some of the details of that documentary are less clear now than then. What is clear is that my first raw reaction was disbelief and maybe even a little fear. I interrupted my wife, who was reading a magazine (probably about how Britney Spears was the new Madonna and how Brad Pitt and Jennifer Annison would defy odds and be together for ever). I asked her to watch that 2 or 3 seconds and tell me that both I and the narrator were crazy. In what I now realize was a changing point in my life (as well as absurdly ironic) my wife was unable to tell me I was crazy.

Years, and years later, I am fluent in many conspiracy theory languages. The advantages that come with questioning the basic nature of a reality you had never once considered questioning have been at least equally beset by the disadvantages of questioning that reality. I’m much less fun at parties then I used to be. Which isn’t as bad as it sounds as I am much less likely to be asked to attend those parties. I don’t want to talk about the subjects I used to enjoy talking about, and my friends don’t want to talk about the subjects I am currently interested in. They don’t understand why I could possibly want to talk about the Federal Reserve, or the implications of documented and admitted CIA involvement in altering human consciousness and I cannot possibly fathom why they simply don’t care.

Stages of Evolution from Belief to Disbelief and Further

I believe that my story is similar to many others. When I reflect on my journey, I find that what stands out to me is that there were distinct stages in my Truth journey. Those stages are:

1. Belief in Everything: This is a little misleading. I didn’t believe everything anyone told me. I knew Pro Wrestling was fake. For the most part though, I didn’t question the story.
2. Beginnings of Doubt: Directly after watching the 9-11 documentary, I began to have some doubts about some things. Initially, I was consumed with information concerning 9-11, but I was also introduced to other subjects. This stage is interesting because there for me there was a distinct transition point from the first stage into the second stage. During this stage, I mostly believed the conventional explanations about our world. But in the back of my mind uncomfortable questions were forming. I believe that subconsciously my search for answers during this period was intended to kill off those uncomfortable questions.
3. Belief in Nothing: This was an uncomfortable stage. During this stage I made the decision that I had been lied to at least once. Logic follows that if you are lied to once, you may have been/or are going to be lied to again. I would characterize this stage as being one of fear. My focus during this time period was on the manipulation of the economy, the ruling elite families, and secret societies.
4. Reorganization of Beliefs: This is where I am currently. I believe I’ll continue to evolve. At the present time, I’m aware that I’ve been lied to. I don’t believe that that means that everything that is said to me is a lie. It’s on me personally to confirm what is true and what is not true. This isn’t always possible with some subjects. I spent a lot of time researching belief systems during this time period. I started off with some of the esoteric belief systems, then I became really involved in Christianity. From all of that, I’ve cobbled together a belief system that feels right to me. I look for truth that resonates with me. This stage is a slightly better place to live then the proceeding stage. I still have more questions then I have answers to, and that still frustrates me. I try to limit frustration with subjects to which I cannot directly impact. I win some days and lose on others.

Lessons Learned

My journey may have been the same as yours. It may be different. I’d be interested to hearing your story. Comment below if you are interested in telling it.

When I get frustrated that people around me fail to open themselves to reviewing objective facts I reflect on my process. I was that person. It’s important to note that I am no “smarter” now than I was then. Maybe I have a little more information, but my cognitive abilities have not been enhanced. If I had not had an experience that caused me to reflect on my belief systems I simply would not have done so. I would have continued to employ the belief system assigned to me. This has helped me understand that any information I provide an individual is unlikely to change their views on the subject. People will ignore objective and easily provable/disprovable facts. That is, until they are faced with their own personal 9-11 moment.

I began to question my reality while halfway watching a 911 documentary with my wife. She was less then halfway watching it. I don’t remember the name of the documentary. It was an early 911 documentary, which presented a number of pieces of evidence which disputed the story as it was and has been officially presented. There was one piece of evidence that, for some reason, made me look at the TV with my full attention. It was video of a plane hitting the building. The narrator dramatically played, paused, and replayed few seconds a number of times. His thesis? That the plane in video had physical characteristics that made it impossible for it to be one of the hijacked planes.